First Update in New Decade

Our second trial month of 2020 is gonna end soon! So, how was it?

Well, I feel time flies fast, at least for me, while some people complain January went too slow. But first, let me tell you about my January. So yeah, January gave me a big surprise. I call it was big since it’s been affected my whole me. Shortly, I got hired by one of big FMCG Company in Indonesia. What could I say at the time was Alhamdulillah and Bismillah. So here I am now, a new clueless corporate slave in Jekardaahh, who always deal with traffic jam everyday and tough environment workplace now. I left my comfort zone which was my lovely home to the new place that made my survival instinct got switched on again. Wish me luck!

Moreover, January gave me another surprise that made me feels like there’re some butterflies inside my stomach. I laughed whenever I remind of that moment. After that long awaiting moment with some curiosity and confusion, finally I got that answer. Actually, I could make 1000 questions but I will keep it now till the universe lets me make 10000 questions instead...for this man.

Anyway, time flies. We’re on February now. My month of birth! It was kinda funny to realize that I’m 24 y.o when I inputted my own data in office yesterday. I was like “How can I’m 24 y.o? Is the system went error or what?” I laughed that I remembered my birthday has passed and I’m no longer 23 y.o.

I was labelling these days still become my beginning time to enter this new phase. It’s the phase which required me to adjust quickly in many different situation. I feel life feels dynamic here, but sometimes I feel the rhythm goes too fast that makes me barely to catch up. The pressure is real. And sometimes unexpected and uncontrolled situations makes everything feels harder. It evokes such a powerless moment, sometimes.

Let’s talk about different things! It’s been 4 months since my late Papa gone, but the grief is still here. I remind him for many times mostly when I am on my hard times. It couldn’t help but the tears kept flowing. And for the upcoming ramadhan and lebaran, I can’t imagine to pass it without him. It’s hard to realize that he’s no longer here and only three of us left, me, my mom and my sister.

I believe everything will gonna pass, either it’s good or bad. The thing that I can do right now is like tokopedia says “Jalani aja dulu.” with many prays and kindness as much as I can.

Cheers for us!