Untuk postingan bulan April ini, tadinya saya akan membahas hal-hal yang diberitakan media dan menarik perhatian saya, termasuk cerita saat saya kehilangan hak suara sebagai pemilih dengan form A5 saat pemilu pertengahan April lalu. Tapi ternyata ada hal lain yang lebih personal terjadi pada diri saya dan ingin saya curahkan disini. Disclaimer dulu : disini saya tidak menyalahkan satu pihak manapun ya! Ini adalah murni refleksi pikiran dan perasaan saya pribadi.
So yeah, in the early April officially I was becoming a job seeker again. They decided not to renew my contract like they said before. Okay, I'll make it clear, they said that there's a change in their manpower planning so they didn't need me with my previous position. That's fine. Once again, it's totally fine for me. I can look for many opportunities out there, right?
Tidak selalu hal baik datang ke kita, tapi kita bisa melihat dengan baik hal yang datang ke kita.
Saya banyak belajar dari ini. Awalnya saya bertanya-tanya 'what did I do wrong?' 'I wish I could...' yaaa intinya bertanya-tanya sendiri kok bisa gitu. Tapi pada akhirnya saya menyadari there's nothing wrong here.
Everything happens for some reason, right? Dari situ saya berhenti membuat asumsi atau judgement yang buruk. Saya justru mencoba mencari pembenaran-pembenaran kenapa suatu hal terjadi pada saya. 'Mungkin ini bukan yang terbaik dan Tuhan sedang menyiapkan yang lebih baik' I always involve God after all. Dan ada satu hal lagi yang selalu saya tanamkan di diri saya,yaitu what makes you cry today might makes you feel grateful later.
I always see my ex-coworker post in their social media about their works with no hard feeling. But sometimes I wonder about my another ex-coworker who left earlier than me. How's his feeling to see those things? Because after all, he ever put his mind to that idea more than I was and probably he built his expectation back then.
Yes, expectation. Sometimes it hurts me. So from now on, I'll be careful of expectation, especially when it comes from others. Yes, I need to be skeptical at first. I don't want to let myself drown in disappointment.
So yeah dear myself and whosoever you who feel the same way as I am, good luck for another awaiting opportunity! Let bygone be bygone! Keep your chin up! But stay humble always! Let your success talk later!
